Jenny, a girl who ‘has it all’

Jenny is 35 and lives in London. She is single and working for a well known fashion magazine. She has a beautiful figure and a long blond hair. Her pretty wide green eyes reflect her wisdom and a kind nature. She sends out a vibe of a goddess, a mysterious energy that is very attractive.

On the outside, Jenny seems to have it all. She is stylish, beautiful, successful and admired by many, but on the inside she feels lonely, sometimes lost. Every time she falls in love with someone, she gets heart broken. People often get surprised when she tells them, she is single….always single. What keeps Jenny happy and fulfilled are her amazing hobbies.

She is taking acting classes three times a week. She is very serious about it and believes that one day she will becomes a movie star. She does an amateur acting in her local theatre too. It’s a friendly place full of nice people of all ages. One of the actors there is Gareth, a 34 years old Welsh architect who moved to London couple of years ago. Jenny has been secretly in love with him for a couple of months now. Sadly for Jenny, Gareth has been in a relationship with another woman. Jenny loves Gareth, but she is not ready to tell him how she feels. She wants him to be happy. His relationship with the other woman seems serious. Jenny often says: “You can’t really choose who you fall in love with? It just happens.” Jenny wouldn’t want to interfere and break this relationship, so she suffers in silence, keeping all her emotions inside. Unrequited love is something very familiar to Jenny. She has experienced it far too many times. Strange it may sound, but it feels good to be in love anyway. Maybe she is hoping deep within that this platonic love will one day turn into a real one and everything will be perfect. Miracles and magical surprises do happen and Jenny is a big believer of that.

Gareth and Jenny have a lot in common. They are both an aspiring actors, love adventures and adore all the work by Shakespeare. Recently, the whole theatre group visited Shakespeare land in Stratford-upon-Avon in England. They loved every moment of it. They tried on several shakespeare-an costumes and even played Romeo and Juliet while there. And guess who was Romeo and who Juliet….? No surprise then.

Jenny often cries. A good romantic film, an inspiring book, someone who touches her heart…she gets really emotional. She doesn’t mind it. Crying often washes away her sorrows and she feels better afterwards. One time a psychic told her, that she is an old soul who feels people’s pain and emotions, and it’s very sensitive to them. When she cries she lets the emotions she absorbed from others out.

At times, life can be monotonous for Jenny. Work, home, study, sleep, then work again. Even tough she likes her job, lately it became more of a routine and she is ready for a shift in her career. Recently, an interesting audition came up for Jenny and she has done a great job at it. She is currently waiting for a decision to be made whether she will get a role at a film with a brilliant prospects. That could be her big break. She feels excited and nervous at the same time.

Today, was a big day, as Jenny made a decision to tell Gareth how she feels about him. This wasn’t an easy task, but after listing many reasons why she shouldn’t, she has found one why she should tell him. She deserves true happiness and holding on to something which she may only be wondering about isn’t healthy. She faced her fear and approach Gareth to tell him how she felt. To cut long story short, Gareth very gently revealed to Jenny that he has just got engaged. Jenny gave him a hug and said that she was genuinely happy for him with tears in her eyes. Of course, she wants him to be happy. When you truly love someone, you want the best for them even though it’s not in your favour. Gareth didn’t like to see Jenny upset like this, but there was nothing else he could do. His heart belongs to someone else.

Jenny, being so familiar with the feeling of a broken heart went home and cried all night. Tears always wash away her pain and her sorrow, and after a while this allows her to see clearly again. The following morning she remembered a past memory when she travelled across the world to take a leap of faith to visit someone she met on the internet. She really liked this person and wanted to know if it was real. This actually happened twice in Jenny’s life. Jenny falls in love easily, but yet again the love was only platonic and unrequited. One time, she travelled all the way to New Zealand, the other time to Hawaii, only to find out these guys didn’t feel as she was. She felt distraught for a while, but as time progressed her wounds have been healed. Jenny pulled herself together as she always does. Remembering these stories gave Jenny a hope. She realised, that no matter what, she will be okay and will get over Gareth too. She also knows, why her previous relationships didn’t work out. She always notices the lessons she learns from any experience and recognises the great wisdom behind them.

A week later, something exciting happened. Jenny has just landed her first major role in a big film she auditioned for. Even tough she is heartbroken and still thinks about Gareth, she is happy and ready to focus on her promising acting career. They want her to start in a couple of months. It will be an every day job for some time. Jenny has given a notice at her present job in the magazine. She has been ready to do that for a while now. After all, acting is her passion and that’s what she wants to be focusing on.

Despite her romantic misfortunes, Jenny will continue flying high and keep radiating her goddess-like energy everywhere she goes. She knows this energy has also brought her the role in the film and will make her a big star. She knows this already without needing other people’s or the world’s validation. She is strong, independent and she understands that even though things sometimes don’t work out exactly as she would like them to, there is something magical always waiting for her around the corner. Jenny knows life is an exciting adventure, which should be celebrated in her own special way and for this wonderful gift from the Universe she will always be grateful.

~A short story by Jana Prackova