You are a soul with a free will. You are making choices as you journey through this life. In truth, you are a multi-dimensional being and you are always supported by many seen and unseen forces that surround you. The three-dimensional reality you exist in at the moment, can seem like a very controlling place to live. This is your perception of it. It is a perception you are currently experiencing by your five physical senses. You are pressured by time and space. Living in this three-dimensional reality isn’t easy, but after all, it is exciting and incredibly beautiful. There is a reason why you have incarnated to the Earth and currently expressing yourself as a human being. Your beautiful soul longs for experiences. It wants to know, what it feels like to be a human, to live in this world and to experience everything that comes with it. It wants to learn new things, even though it’s hard at times. If this sounds a bit alien to you, don’t worry please. It can sometimes be difficult to put the soul’s language into words. But, if some of the above resonates with you and you are sensing any familiarity, please carry on reading. I want you to know, that you are a powerful soul, an incredible creator, and you should start being aware of your wisdom now.
When I joined the crowd….
Ever since I can remember, I had troubles fitting in to this reality. School, work, any social gathering, I was out of my comfort zone. I always had to make an extra effort to fit in. This wasn’t natural to me. I felt, I needed to force myself and let go of the truth of who I really am to join in. I had difficulty understanding and adjusting to the rules this world was presenting me. At school, the kids often made fun of me, telling me I was odd and stupid. I figured, that perhaps, there must be something wrong with me. I thought, I wasn’t good enough being myself. Since then, I would do anything, to be like everybody else. Copying others, pretending I was somebody who I wasn’t, just to be accepted by this society was controlling my daily life. I joined the crowd, because I longed to be accepted and popular. In my early twenties, I realised, that living this way won’t work. It was painful, I was unhappy, confused and under constant pressure. I became very tired of it. Fortunately, my soul saved me from it. Well, at the time it actually didn’t look like a saviour to me, it rather seemed like a more struggle and darkness just entered my already painful life. The feelings of my denial exploded to one of the most challenging periods of my life. Many years of severe anxiety, living in every day worry whether I will survive today (literally) were ruling my life and haunting my daily existence. It was terrifying, uncomfortable and it felt like a nightmare with no ending in sight. I tried almost everything to help myself. Regular check ups at doctors, counselling, throwing myself into situations I was afraid of (thinking this way I will overcome my fears), I would basically try anything that would get me out of that storm. Unfortunately, nothing and nobody was able to help me. I knew something had to change and change very soon.
A magical shift
One day, I was sitting in my living room obsessing about something, yet again, when something very unusual happened. I’ve heard a whisper, an inner voice saying to me: Acceptance! It was loud, it was clear, but at the same time very calming and loving. I recognised this voice from my childhood. I couldn’t deny it. I made a decision that day to accept the unpleasant feelings I was experiencing up to this point and stop pushing them away. I said to myself: If I have to feel like this for the rest of my life, so be it. A sense of liberation lightly touched my body and my very tired soul. I began to accept how I was feeling, instead of denying these unpleasant emotions. They were part of me and as they were part of me, I needed to learn how to co-operate with them, rather than push them away. Since that day, things started to change, of course on a very small scale. Slowly, but surely, I began feeling better. I realised, that my power actually lies within my truth and not in trying to be somebody I wasn’t. I stopped denying my authenticity. The desire of pleasing others began to fade away. I started remembering who I really am and by doing so, my soul’s voice got louder and clearer again, exactly the way it’s been when I was a child. The right people who were supposed to share this journey with me stayed on it. Others, were led away from me, and some, which are not meant to be on my path are still drifting away as I write these lines. I don’t force anyone to stay anymore. I’m letting go of the controlling attitude. I believe there is a divine reason behind everything we encounter in life, and it is unfolding as it should. I trust and know. I realised, being true to myself will naturally bring the right people to me.
Be you, that’s where your power lies
You are like nobody else. In some mystical-cosmic way you already know this. On a deeper level, you are aware, that you are so much more than you think you are. Growing up, you may have been perceived as a weird kid, maybe you didn’t have many friends and others were avoiding you. You might have been bullied, laughed at or called names. This used to be the story of my life. But, when I look back, I wouldn’t change any of those experiences. Yes, it was tough and it was overwhelming at times, but those experiences shaped me to who I am today and continuously doing so. They made me stronger, wiser and proud of who I am. After all, my soul has chosen this path and I am grateful for it. In my adult life, I began creating a reality that works for me. It’s fun and it works. Even though, there are many things in this world I don’t agree with, find difficult to deal with and would like to change, I try to rise above them. Following my soul’s voice is my every day saviour. When I get still, in that solitude I find my strength and I am reminded of my truth. Listen to that wisdom, the wisdom of your own soul, which is here to guide you and help you realise the true nature of your being. Be proud of you, beautiful soul.