I recently moved to a new place. What an exciting time. I wanted to do this for a long time, and here, I finally am, in a cosy, little apartment and I’m loving it. But I must admit, the initial move wasn’t as easy as I thought it would be. I’ve been learning many new things I had no idea about before, an unexpected expenses were surprising me almost weekly, and quite a few things didn’t go exactly as I planned them to. But on the other hand, many beautiful blessings presented themselves to me in the midst of what seemed like a bit of chaos. When things go repeatedly wrong in our lives, we may start wondering whether we are on the right path. We may question our decisions, feel lost, even powerless. Running away and planning a quick escape, rather than facing the unknown can seem like the easiest choice. I’ve been there. In the midst of my own challenges in the last couple of months, my energy has been up and down. One moment I was excited about the present and the future ahead of me, the next moment, I was faced with another burden. Luckily, I remembered that at times like these, there is no other way, than coming home to my true self. I know, I needed to still my mind and listen to the wisdom of my soul. My soul never lets me down. It’s only when I try to control, try to get in the way, or make decisions based on my ego rather than my intuition,things get chaotic. When I’m aligned with my truth, I am fully aware that my outside world is a reflection of my internal state. I fully understand, that what I focus on always expands and what I send out will always get back to me. It took me a little while to remember (after detouring to a place of lack and control for a few weeks), but once I did, I felt empowered.
What happened last week…
Last week, a light, finally brightened up my life after facing this challenging season. At first, it seemed like another obstacle just arised, but I’m pleased to say, a few wonderful blessings followed soon after. I was looking forward to finally have my broadband installed in the new flat. I spent almost all of my mobile phone data already and was ready for the WiFi connection. I got so excited when my broadband package arrived. It seemed like an easy ‘do it yourself’ installation, so I got to work. For some reasons, which I won’t go into now, I wasn’t able to connect it. I got on the phone to my broadband provider within minutes. The agent on the line was very helpful, and scheduled a date for an engineer to come and sort it out for me. I was grateful, but sadly, this solution didn’t get me online within the next five minutes. I thanked the agent for his help, said goodbye and put the phone down. At that point, I’ve had enough. Remembering all these things going wrong for me in the last couple of months, everything I had to face, all the money I had paid and also wasted….in that moment, I bursted into tears. All I wanted was to get on the plane and fly home to my parents, where I always feel safe and everything is taken care of. There, I can forget about all the usual worries that come with an adulthood. Sounds a little childish hmmm….I thought so too.
The turning point
After spending about half an hour feeling sorry for myself, a light suddenly floated into my reality. My soul’s wisdom stepped in and remembered my truth. A sense of peace and calm surrounded my entire being. I was guided to breathe slowly, and I still my clouded mind. I remembered that I am in charge, and I alway have a choice. I have a choice how I want to perceive what is going on right now. I realised, that the Universe is not punishing me. The Universe is giving me an opportunity to learn another lesson. I realised, I can either give up and hold on to the anger, or I can find a blessing in all these inconveniences. I chose the latter.
The blessings in disguise
Looking at my life from a higher perspective always works magic. This way, I allow my soul to lead the way. The experience of not having a home WiFi for a while was a huge blessing for many reasons. I managed to read quite a few books, which I wouldn’t do otherwise. I also meditated and prayed more than ever before, instead of browsing the internet. Having all the unexpended expenses taught me to monitor my finances more regularly, and stop paying for the things and services I don’t really need anymore. I had a closer look at what was going with my finances and this was a huge learning for me. By moving to the new flat, I also learn so many things I had no idea about before. Even though I had to learn some of them the hard way, I am grateful that I did. All of this made me wiser and educated me about things I didn’t understand before.