Over the last few years, I’m realising more and more how much denial and scarcity I used to live in. At that time I didn’t accept myself for who I was, instead, I was always trying to be somebody I wasn’t. I believed I wasn’t good enough. Replacing my true self with all sorts of ‘false personas’ was painful, but it seemed like an easier choice at the time. After a long period of living in this confusion, I exhausted myself so deeply, I had troubles functioning in my daily life. I knew that sooner than later I needed to escape this unpleasant nightmare. When I finally made this decision, it was very liberating, but it also came with feelings of guilt and shame from my past choices. I began learning to accept myself for who I was, but those disturbing feelings became ever-present in my daily life. They were making me feel uncomfortable and often worthless. The magical shift occurred when I’ve made a choice to see myself as a beautiful human being and a soul beyond all the imperfections I believed in. I became willing to start accepting myself for who I really was one day at the time.My healing journey still continues. As I’m aligning more and more with my true self every single day. Many old past wounds and some ugly truths are still coming up to the surface. I know they are asking to be dealt with, so they can finally be healed and transformed. They are often creeping into my life at the most unexpected times, in the moments when I think I’m finally on the right track. But now, no matter how unpleasant or scary they seem, I am fully committed to clear them up. I know I want to step into this world as a powerful spiritual teacher, and this is part of my healing and transformational journey and I’m grateful for it.
Sometimes in life, we reach a point where everything seems to be going against us. We may feel everything is falling apart. In the moments like this, it’s important to remember, that everything may actually be aligning to the right place. I know it’s scary, I know it’s uncomfortable and it hurts an awful lot. But it is part of your healing process, so you can finally be who you really came here to be. You may not understand the reason behind those challenges right now, but you can learn to trust this journey, even if you don’t understand it yet. This certainly is a path to your truth and many blessings which will be revealed to you when the time is right. It is one of the most liberating paths you can ever take.
So I forgive myself now! I know, I am slowly, but surely cleaning up my side of the street and the damage I caused to my beautiful self in the period of those thirty-something years living on this planet. I do know, I’m done with denying my true self. I’m done with being ashamed of my story and I’m ready to step into my light fully now~ no matter how long it may take! If I fall, I will try again and again for the rest of my life!
Dealing with guilt and shame isn’t always easy, but there are things you can do to start healing them and transforming them. I want to give you some tips I’ve been finding very helpful whilst dealing with those emotions. Remember you are not alone. All of us experience those feelings whether we admit it or not. We act from a place of fear and create many painful stories in our lives unnecessarily. Most of us just don’t talk about them. This is the reason I’ve decided to take the first step and begin this conversation. Let’s start honouring our true identity and let’s start learning how to be proud of it.
Forgive yourself
Guilt and shame are very low and draining emotions. You don’t need to be carrying those emotions around with you for the rest of your life. Choose to forgive yourself today! Forgiveness is one of the most beautiful gifts you can give to yourself. Stop being hard on yourself and try to accept yourself a little more today for who you are. You are constantly learning and growing. You are not the same person you were a year ago, a month ago. You are not even the same person you were ten minutes ago. Accept this truth, love yourself and respect yourself. Even for the ‘unwise’ choices, you might have made. Past is not here anymore and there is nothing which can be changed about it, only your approach towards the past can be changed. It taught you some powerful and important lessons. Try to accept what was and focus on the person you are becoming now. In the real truth, you are a beautiful, pure soul full of love and light.
Breathe
The process of releasing guilt and shame isn’t easy, but it’s definitely possible to let those feelings go. You can set yourself free from the chains you put around yourself. When the old feelings of guilt and shame float into my reality, I do this simple exercise: “I take a few deep, cleansing, conscious breaths. I visualise breathing in all the goodness and love this Universe has in store for me. When I breathe out, I visualise I am breathing out all that guilt and shame I’ve been thinking about. I know those feelings are not part of me anymore and I am willing to let them go!” I repeat this cycle of breathing for about five rounds (but you can do this for as long as you like) and I feel so much better afterwards with a clarity on my mind. Try it.
Focus on your dreams
What would you like to experience in your life? What goals and dreams do you still have? Here is a suggestion for you! When you are dealing with guilt and shame instead of worrying about those feelings, re-focus your attention to something worth-while such as concentrating on your dreams. This way you’ll start feeling excited about something which is important to you and your attention will shift from a negative vibration to a positive frequency. What you focus on always expands, so start focusing more on what you would like to create in your life.
A thought to keep!
You are a brave soul and I am so proud of you right now! Taking the first step towards your real truth is one of the most courageous decisions you will ever make in a world that tells you otherwise. Keep going and know it is never too late to start. Even if you fall off the path and it doesn’t matter how many times you do, you can always begin again and again. Set yourself on this new authentic journey and become the real you and finally free.